May 2013
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Sometimes I just wonder why we always break out into an argument or have a little scuffle about small misunderstandings…what happened to those days…those days when we never argued and just longed for each other’s embrace…
undeserving.
In the end, that’s all I ever was.
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I wish I had a personal diary inside my brain. But alas, memories are unreliable and alter according to its owner and their wants/needs.
Fear...
I’m still scared of completely opening my heart to someone. I tried it and it broke. Shattered. Completely disintegrated. How am I supposed to let myself truly open up again after that? I love taking chances and risks when it comes to extreme sports or other things in life, but not love. It hurts too much:( Way too much. on a side note: I wonder why it’s so difficult for me to show my...
I realize it’s not that what I do goes ignored…it’s just that I make up excuses in my head to make myself feel better…to make myself actually think I’m contributing to this relationship in a positive manner.
Sometimes it’s just so hard to think optimistically because everything’s already going so WRONG. It seems like I’m stuck in a never ending black hole of life fuckery…
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Sometimes, there’s nothing better than listening to your favorite singer when your mind just can’t take anymore of anything.
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empathy.
Is it wrong to think someone else’s happiness is more important than yours? I would give everything to make my love happy…I just don’t know how.
Worries.
I’m constantly WORRIED. My parents, false accusations, my image, grades, love life, my old pup. All of these worries are coalescing and bringing me so much stress:(
My parents fight constantly. My father is absolutely scary when he starts yelling and breaking things. I bought my mother sets of plates and dinner platters fit for spring. I guess it was appropriate because today, my father...
Frustration. Sadness. Depression.
I just want to chill and talk and have his presence there for me sometimes…I just want him to say all of the right things. Do all of the right things. Give me attention when I want/need it.
But I expect too much. I expect too much while giving nothing in return, so I guess that just makes me a greedy bitch:/
I just want someone who will make me happy. Pull me out of this depressing chain...
Inadequacy.
Why do I always feel so inadequate:( It’s like everything I do is taken for granted or ignored. Like my opinions don’t really matter. I don’t understand why life is just deciding to FUCK. ME. OVER.
April 2013
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Sigh…I just want to be happy with him but circumstances aren’t allowin us happiness:/ Constantly feeling anxious sucks…I wish one of us could’ve had the ability to just be able to take everything chill so the atmosphere doesn’t always have an underlying sense of anxiety. Sigh. Relationships are tough…especially with crazyassmotherfuckers for parents>:(
March 2013
24 posts
Life sucks. The end.
Hot guys. They don’t impress me as much as they did before. I prefer being with someone who will genuinely care about me rather than be with someone who is just all looks. I’ve been in both kinds of relationships before and the former most definitely triumphs. Even so, I can’t help but think of what it would be like to be in a relationship with certain people. I think the whole...
Waiting.
I never knew how much waiting for your loved one sucks. How do people do long-distance relationships?! I hate waiting in general already>< my impatient self does not do well with the concept of waiting. I found out one of the worst feelings in the world is to wait for someone, only to receive short, terse responses from them. Only to receive anything but loving words. I wish I had more...
“I’m not perfect. I know I’m not the best looking. I know that I don’t have the most amazing body, the most amazing personality or the cutest smile you’ve ever seen, and I know I can be unreasonable. But I will always love you no matter what, I fight with you because I care about you. I’m far from perfect, but I will try my best to give you everything that you...
